Frustration

   I am getting pretty frustrated lately and here is why.  I work part time as a barista and stay at home with my son the majority of the time. Now dont get me wrong I love staying at home with Nathaniel but sometimes I wish there was more. Or that there was some way that I could stay at home and make some money so that things are not just so tight around here. I am trying to find ways to save on things , find coupons, look for sales even entering contests i see here and there but to be quite honest I am not that good at it lol .  So how does a mom stay at home and still help with the bills. That is my dilemma.

  I am sure that alot of other moms are feeling the same way and really wonder what they do.   I guess what it really comes down to is i have to find something that people want that I can do or a skill i have that people need to have done for them. I guess at this time all I can do is continue to brainstorm .. 

How times have changed..

  This morning I was sitting at the kitchen table with a cup of coffee listening to my son and boyfriend  play with some old cars that my son had fished out of a box.  " brmmm brmmm, beep beep " my sons says.  I am so excited because this is the first time my son has said beep beep.   Crazy how just four years ago I didn't even want to be around children. I was so positive that having children was something that I didn't want. Now I couldn't imagine my life without Nathaniel.  Of course parenthood has had its ups and downs. No sleep, the cash flow is slowed down a bit,  my social life has has done a complete 180 and my body has defenately seen better days. But on the bright side I know what its like to love someone 100% unconditionally, I get so excited and proud  every time he does something new or learns something, I get to be a child again and see things through a child's eyes and of course I get unlimited cuddles.  Life is good.